Old friends

I used to be really close to 2 of my friends and I can't talk to them anymore I haven't spoken to them since December I think maybe one day I will be able to talk to them when I have my own place but not now while I live with my parents I do hope they are happy I know they are actually since I look at their social media pretty frequently and I don't think hey even remember me or miss How I miss them, I don't think I will ever make new friends it's very hard for me to talk to people I think because I still hope to be friends with my old friends in the future idk im not making sense anymore