Relatable

I think most 20 year olds don't know what to do with their life at the moment. I feel like I am stuck in this limbo stage where I feel old and very young at the same time I don't have all of my shit together yet and is that ok? My parents don't think it's ok, neither do my siblings. I think it's ok most of the time I still have time to hange my mind about things but I don't like the feeling of wasting time it eats me alive inside and makes me anxious and not able to sleep. My thought go wild at night and I can't sleep I just think and do research and freak out and think some more? I usually end up going to sleep around 4 am and it sucks!!! Is there anyone that can relate to what I am feeling? I think of myself as a very private and very shy person with not many friends or many talents I still believe in myself and my future I just have a hard time sharing my feelings and emotions with others 

Maybe this will change one day...